What's On Your Soul?

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I have been a victim of my past. I am guilty of holding those in my present, hostage to my past pains. How can we get past the past? No matter how hard we try, the past constantly rears its ugly head. It's not that I hate my past, it's what makes me me, however it is what makes me... me.

I am a firm believer that God allows us to struggle, so that we may be molded into the creature of God that He intended for us to be. We must stop allowing the devil to use our "forging" for his evil, when these experiences are meant to bring out the God in us. We must also make sure that we are not allowing the difficult times to bring about the demise of our relationships... but their growth.

As a child, we were allowed (even encouraged) to explore and experience life. I recall when I was caught trying to stick a fork into an electric socket. My mother tried to kill me. I guess it's better for her to kill me, instead of electricity. However when I attempted to get a chicken pot pie out of the oven, my mom stood by and watched me get burned. You see, she had warned me many times to not to touch the stove. I was too young, so she allowed me the opportunity to learn the hard way. What doesn't kill you, makes you stronger. Right? Well my mother knew that the electric socket would kill me but the oven would only scare me.

I believe there are 3 types of scares. There are light, deep and/or lifetime scares. That day, with the chicken pot pie, my mom allowed me to receive a light scare. The light scares teaches you a lesson with leaving little to no damage at all. These scares are a necessary evil to life, so we may learn something valuable, however the great thing about them, for the most part... their mere blemishes.

Next, there are the deep scares. Deep scares leave marks that can last for a lifetime. The scariest thing about deep scares, is the fact that you do not know the extent of the damage until much later. These scares have so much damaged tissue on top of it, the severity of the wound is hidden. Similar to an old athletic injury that ails when the weather changes, deep scares rear their ugly heads, when life conditions resemble those of how the wounds were obtained. Deep scares plague the damaged and corrupts their perception. Do you recall when you had your feelings hurt?

There was a time when I had a girlfriend tell me I looked good, however if I lost some weight I would be fine! Was that a compliment? I didn't think so. Since that episode, I have been a little sensitive about my weight. That sensitivity is what drives us to pain. A pain that shakes the core foundation of our being and it's the intensity of that shockwave that causes deep wounds to become lifetime wounds. It is through the mishandling/mistreatment of these deep wounds that causes us to suffer throughout our lives. We must believe in the healing powers of God and the fact that any and I mean ANY damage that has been caused, HE CAN RESTORE. We are incapable of healing our own damage, forgiving wrong doings, overcoming strongholds without the aid of the Almighty.

Heal me, O Lord, and I shall be healed; save me, and I shall be saved: for thou art my praise. (Jeremiah 17:14 KJV)

Behold, I will bring it health and cure, and I will cure them, and will reveal unto them the abundance of peace and truth. (Jeremiah 33:6 KJV)

But he was wounded for our transgressions, he was bruised for our iniquities: the chastisement of our peace was upon him; and with his stripes we are healed. (Isaiah 53:5 KJV)